How Subconscious Reprogramming Saved Me at 21 When I Was at Rock Bottom [ep. #291]
Most people think subconscious reprogramming starts with a dramatic breakthrough. Mine started with the colour yellow.
When I was 21 I was in the pits. Bottom of my list stage school, being told I was too fat, dating boys who wrecked my mental health, and on antidepressants. Then a coach gave me one strange instruction. Notice the colour yellow. She never told me why. Within days I saw yellow everywhere, and something in me started to shift.
I had no clue that one sentence would send me down a rabbit hole of subconscious mind work, NLP and hypnotherapy, or that it would become my career for nearly 8 years. Today, I'm taking you through the 3 moments that made me absolutely obsessed with subconscious reprogramming. Now, let me take you back.
Topics covered on Subconscious Reprogramming:
The biggest shift in your subconscious reprogramming might come from something as ordinary as a colour
How these NLP techniques completely changed the way I read human behaviour
Why two people can live the exact same moment and walk away with opposite memories of it
What my clients say to me after a session that I could never sell you on, no matter how good my marketing is
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"The most significant shift begins with something so ordinary that we almost overlook it." Rebecca Haydon
Transcription:
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[00:00:00] [00:00:00] I completely understand that I am fully obsessed with the subconscious mind. Let's be honest, it's obvious. It's very, very obvious. But I wanted to do a podcast episode about how I became so obsessed with the subconscious, and where my fascination with subconscious reprogramming all came from. Where did it all happen?
[00:00:25] When we get asked this question of "How did you get here?" or "How did you become so obsessed?" or "How did that happen?", you assume you're going to go back to one specific moment, one defining moment, and that's it. I discovered NLP, I read a book, I attended training, I had a huge breakthrough, and boom, boom, boom.
[00:00:45] Which did happen. It did happen. But looking back, and preparing some notes for this podcast episode, which my podcast manager will be very happy about, I know that it started long before I even knew what the subconscious was. It wasn't really a word I'd heard about.
[00:01:09] I now can't comprehend that it was a word I hadn't heard about, and that subconscious mind work wasn't in my life back then. I genuinely can't understand that anymore. My fascination with the, quote unquote, subconscious literally started a way, way back, many centuries ago. If you're a musical theatre fan, you'll know that's the start of Joseph and the Technicolor Dreamcoat.
It All Started Long Before I Knew The Word Subconscious
[00:01:36] Anyhoos, I can trace it back to stage school. For those who don't know what stage school is, or don't know about me, I was a professional performer. It was my career before I did what I do now. Quite frankly, I think that career has given me so much in my business, and I'm so grateful.
[00:02:00] But it really started back then. Stage school is almost the equivalent to a uni degree, but it's very, very different. There were definitely no freshers. I was in from 8 till 7 every single day. It was fucking hard, exhausting and just awful. I know I've spoken about that experience so many times, but it really ties in with what I'm about to speak about.
[00:02:35] When I got to stage school, there was quite a lot that had happened before I got there. I have always been, and I don't know whether I still am because it's been a while, but I was always an incredible dancer, especially tap dancing. For those who know, Gene Kelly was my crush growing up.
[00:02:56] That kind of tells you a little bit about who I was. Put Singin' in the Rain on, and I'm your gal. I was very, very good at tap dancing. I won a lot of awards for it. I was a very skilled performer, very good at acting. Singing I was also very good at, but never ever believed it, and still don't to this day.
[00:03:19] I kind of had a lot going for me. In the performing arts world I was in prior to stage school, I was quite the big fish, to an extent. Not as big as I wanted to be, because of my little belief about being the best, but I was good. I was really good at what I did.
[00:03:42] So when I was auditioning for stage school, I thought, "Well, this is going to be a walk in the park." But did I really believe that? Because I don't think I believed in myself then either. This is weird. I'm literally in pure reflection and subconscious reprogramming as I speak. I'd auditioned for stage school, and there were a top...
[00:04:04] There were these top 2 stage schools I really wanted to get into, and I didn't get in. There was this whole scenario where the one stage school I desperately wanted to go to, I got through the first round, then didn't get in, and then my performing arts teacher at the time called them back for feedback, and they asked me back to audition again the same year, which is unbelievably unheard of. I got through the second round and then didn't get in.
[00:04:33] So there was this whole situation. Now, the stage school I ended up going to was pretty much bottom of my list. Bottom of the bottom. But I thought, "Look, I'm going to go there and just do the first year, and I'll audition again whilst I'm there. At least I'm in London.
[00:04:51] At least I'm in training." Whatever, right? I got to stage school. Where I was, it was called London Studio Centre, and it was very dance orientated, which I was very good at. However, I was also a lot bigger than a lot of the other girls there. When I say bigger, I was size 10. I was a UK 10 at this time.
Being The Biggest Girl In The Room And What It Did To My Mental Health
[00:05:14] I think I was about 64 kg. She wasn't big. She was not big. But compared to everyone else, who was underneath a size 8 and below, a size 4 or size 2, and probably 30 kg, let's be honest, I was a bigger girl. This is where it all began, because my weight then became this vocal point for everyone to speak about.
[00:05:48] I literally had a conversation with my mum the other day, because a picture came up as a memory, and I realised that in that exact week, I was told I was too fat. I look at that picture now and I think, "God bless that Becky back then for getting through that," because it's just wild.
[00:06:06] Anyway, this is not a podcast episode about my weight, but it's part of the story. I'd obviously gone through stage school. First of all, I was at a stage school I didn't really want to be at. I auditioned again that year and didn't get in. So there was just a lot of rejection from the get go. I was also the biggest, so that fed into this question of "Where do I sit in the industry?"
[00:06:30] Because I couldn't be in the ensemble. This was back in the day. It's way more accepted now to be, quote unquote, bigger in the industry. The industry is trying to be more acceptable now, but I still think it holds a lot of bullshit in there. That's just from looking outside of it. But anyway, there was a lot going on.
[00:06:51] There was a lot going on, and because of that, it really started to affect my mental health. It started to affect my mental health at a time when I was dating men. They were not men, I can confirm. I was dating boys who were not good for my mental health either. So double whammy. By the time I got to third year, so that would have been 2013,
[00:07:20] and I was 21, I was in the pits. I was in the pits, and you're constantly being berated. You're constantly being shouted at. There are so many rules and regulations. If you don't show up to an 8 AM ballet class, you cannot do the rest of the day. There was a lot going on, and there was also a lot happening in my personal life with this guy I was seeing at the time. I was adamant that he was seeing my best friend behind my back.
[00:07:47] There was so much going on, so I was travelling home every weekend. It was a lot. I remember getting to a point, and I think I spoke about this on the podcast episode before, where I literally couldn't look my mum in the eye. Now my mum's my best friend, and I couldn't even look her in the eye.
[00:08:07] Couldn't hold a conversation. I weirdly remember at this time my brother, who was still living at home, moved into my bedroom because I'd left. So I was in the box room. Anyone else had the box room, where a single bed doesn't even fit on the walls? I was in that room when I used to come back on the weekends, and I remember sitting in that room with my mum trying to talk to me.
[00:08:31] Well, I do know why I remember this so much, because it had such an emotional pull, which is where our biggest imprints come from, when there's emotion behind it, heavy emotion behind it. I was just looking down to the ground. I was looking down at the floor.
[00:08:47] I literally couldn't even look her in the eye. That is one of my telltale signs that we've got to do work here. I thought, "Something has to change. I cannot keep doing this. I love performing. I really want to do this. This is the only thing I ever, ever wanted to do, since I was in the playground.
[00:09:11] In primary school, when people said, "You don't know what you want to do when you grow up," I thought, "What the hell?" I just knew that that's what I wanted to do for so long. But my mental health was that bad. I definitely was on depression tablets at this point, because it did get that bad. And I thought, something has to change.
The Coach Told Me To Notice The Colour Yellow
[00:09:29] Something had to give. For some reason, I went to see what I believe was probably a coach. I should have asked my mum before I did this podcast episode, because I think she definitely booked it for me. I remember it was Waterloo. It was by Waterloo. I remember walking out.
[00:09:47] I remember the coach's room. It wasn't therapy, it was definitely more coaching, but the coach's room was down these stairs, and I remember that room. I remember the colour of that room. I thought, "Right, let's give it a go, because I cannot feel any worse than I feel right now, so I need to know how to fix this."
[00:10:08] It's now affecting my auditions. It's now affecting me getting an agent. It's affecting everything. I imagine we spent the session talking through everything. I can't remember that at all. I probably did leave feeling very different. However, one thing I remember very clearly is that she told me, and now I know why they do this, to notice the colour yellow.
[00:10:45] At that point, she didn't explain it. She didn't tell me why. There was no rationale behind it. She just wanted me to notice the colour yellow. I do remember leaving feeling quite hopeful, and I was already kind of fascinated by that sort of thing. I was reading The Secret.
[00:11:06] I was manifesting the Tube coming at the right time, because we lived somewhere where the Tube had 2 options to get to. I was kind of in that already. So I remember leaving and calling my mum and saying, "She's told me to look for the colour yellow." I couldn't work out what the colour yellow had to do with anything we'd spoken about, and there we go.
What Happened When I Started Seeing Yellow Everywhere
[00:11:33] Now, obviously, if you've worked with me before, something interesting has started to happen. Of course, I started to see yellow everywhere. Everywhere. The signs on the road were so much more yellow than I'd ever seen. Flowers and sunflowers became the absolute GOAT of my house.
[00:11:57] I still do to this day. I love sunflowers. But the signs in the shop windows, jumpers, the supermarket, every notepad. You name it, I saw yellow everywhere. It literally was as if she'd turned the brightness up on that colour, and I didn't really see anything else. I then actively started to buy things that were yellow and bring more yellow into my life.
[00:12:24] I am naturally quite a yellow person anyway. People always say, "Oh, you're sunshine yellow." So it was quite a part of my life, but not as much as this.
The Subconscious Reprogramming Hidden Inside One Simple Instruction
What fascinates me today about that, after years and years of studying hypnotherapy and neuro linguistic programming, and spending thousands upon thousands of hours working with my clients, is that I realise that coach had given my subconscious an instruction that became associated with the work we'd done together. This was subconscious reprogramming in its simplest form.
[00:13:04] So without consciously deciding it, every time I noticed yellow, I found myself subconsciously reconnecting with that session. I remember how I felt when I walked out of the room. I remember the possibilities I could feel beginning to change. I remember that someone had listened to me and heard me and allowed me to take a few steps forward.
[00:13:31] So that colour almost became a cue to that change for me, which was really powerful and really special. It's one of the reasons I do very similar things with many of my own clients today. I know many of you listening have got colours you've messaged me about, and maybe I have told you why I do that.
[00:13:55] Maybe I haven't quite yet, and you're about to find out. Literally at the end of hypnosis sessions, I will often say something along the lines of, "Over the next couple of days and weeks ahead, every time you notice the colour yellow, you will automatically connect with everything we've done today.
[00:14:12] Every time you see the colour yellow, you'll become increasingly aware of the changes integrating into your life every day. You'll notice more and more evidence that this work continues long after the session has finished." That is all in my mind. I can literally reel it off word for word, but that is what I say.
[00:14:30] To someone listening consciously, that's just, "Oh, that's a lovely way to finish the session." But to me as the practitioner, it's such a beautiful way of allowing my client's subconscious to continue integrating the change we've made outside of the Zoom room, which is amazing.
[00:14:58] So integration is happening for my client way after the session. It's happening when you're standing in the queue at the supermarket and you see the yellow, or walking the dog, or driving to the gym, or making a coffee. Life carries on exactly the way it has, and it did for me.
[00:15:23] However, every time that colour caught my attention, I was reconnecting with everything I'd experienced in that room. To the client it feels, and I'm letting you behind the curtain now, as if the colour has this special power, but it's the association with the different way of thinking, or feeling, or experiencing themselves that that colour gives. That, in its own quiet way, is subconscious reprogramming at work.
[00:15:49] So when I think back to that 21 year old me, my God, if I could go back and give her the biggest hug, and give her all the knowledge I have now, how different she would feel. She didn't understand any of that. She didn't understand anchoring, or post hypnotic suggestions, or the meta model, or the Milton model, or hierarchy of ideas.
[00:16:19] None of the things I do with my clients now. I wasn't analysing what my subconscious was doing, but I just knew that every time I noticed the colour yellow, I found myself able to tap back into that feeling, reconnecting with the feeling I left with in that session. Looking back now, it gives me goosebumps, full goosebumps, just speaking about it, because that's what stayed with me so much.
Why The Smallest Moments Create The Biggest Shifts
[00:16:46] So much. That was the start of this journey for me, almost. Even though that was 2013 and I didn't really start getting into this work properly until my training in 2019, so we've got quite a significant period of time there, I just think it's so powerful.
[00:17:09] It's so powerful. As I said, it wasn't a very big moment for me. I was in the depths of the depths, and I just literally went to this coaching session. I went a couple more times after that. So a lot of people think of this as a dramatic breakthrough or a decision that changes your whole life, and yes, sometimes it can come from that.
[00:17:27] However, the most significant shifts begin with something so ordinary that we almost overlook it. We almost overlook it. Maybe it's a sentence someone said to you, or a question someone asked. A lot of my questions are the best kind of questions, because they'll do that for you.
[00:17:46] Maybe it's a meaning that gets reframed for you, and that happened so much longer ago. At the time, I had absolutely no idea this would become my career. It's now been my career for 7, nearly 8 years, which blows my mind. Blows my mind. Back then, I certainly would not have been able to tell you that I would spend years studying the subconscious mind.
[00:18:13] Still to this day I study it. I'm so fascinated by it. I'm so dedicated to it. I'm so obsessed with it. I dedicate my life to helping other people understand their own subconscious mind. Oh God, full goosebumps. But what I did know back then was that there was something incredibly fascinating about the fact that one simple instruction, look for the colour yellow, could influence how I then felt moving forwards. That curiosity didn't really leave.
My Mum, A Book I Ignored, And A One Way Ticket To Australia
[00:18:46] It didn't really leave. If anything, it became even stronger when I stumbled across something called neuro linguistic programming, because for the first time I literally had the instruction manual, someone showing me that the mind could work in extraordinary ways. Which kind of leads me to the second reason I'm so obsessed with the subconscious mind.
[00:19:14] Now, neuro linguistic programming has been in my life, and I feel like I spoke about this when I was launching the Subconscious Institute. My mum started in HR with her career and has moved up the ranks. She's now CEO, but she is very much a people services. She's done a lot of profiling.
[00:19:37] She works with the colours with companies and consultancy, and things like that. So she's always been part of that world. I think that's probably why she sent me to have some coaching at that time. She gave me an NLP book probably back in 2016. I remember the exact location it sat on my bookshelf in the house I was living in at the time.
[00:19:59] It's so weird, isn't it? I remember the exact NLP book that it was as well. I didn't read it. I didn't look at it. Mum had done her NLP practitioner at that point, so it was just something we'd talked about. When I moved to Australia, I obviously had a suitcase and £1,000, if you were there for that story I always tell, that I moved to Australia with 1 suitcase and £1,000.
[00:20:27] That was the literal truth. And no career prospects. I had no fucking clue what I was doing. I've been teaching dance. I'd done my personal training qualification. I've done my yoga qualification. I had no clue what I was doing. I got to Australia and I'd started blogging at the time, and I was basically blogging about a lot of the things I'd learnt from trying to get out of my rut in the performing arts industry.
[00:20:52] So I was teaching them about looking for a colour and what it would do for them. I was teaching people that. And so many people from those blogs, which used to go out on a Sunday and were called Sunday Soul, and I had a little website and everything, so many people were writing back saying, "This is changing me. This is really, really helping me."
[00:21:12] I thought, "Fuck, maybe there's something in this." Lo and behold, we got to Australia in January of 2019, and by April of 2019 I had signed up, and I remember it being AU$12,000, for my hypnosis practitioner, hypnosis masters, NLP practitioner, NLP masters, and coaching qualification 1 and 2.
NLP Techniques That Gave Language To What I Already Sensed
[00:21:38] I thought, "I'm in. Let's fucking do it all." That's how I am. That first NLP training I did, neuro linguistic programming training, which is a modality we use within the subconscious, I remember sitting there thinking, "How have I never learnt this before?" How have I never learnt this before?
[00:22:01] NLP was truly the thing that got me so obsessed, and that is why I now run my own institute qualifying people as practitioners and master NLP. I know people who have been through the qualification, either with me or with other people. These NLP techniques really do give you the language to describe things you've been noticing or experiencing for years, and you've never been able to explain them. Up until that point, I'd already been very curious about people.
[00:22:39] In the performing arts industry, especially when you're playing a character, you do a lot of modelling, which is one of the NLP techniques we teach in Masters. You do a lot of modelling on a character. So I have to understand how they've grown up. I have to understand the feelings that they have.
[00:22:58] I have to understand the thought processes that they have. In my third year, I was the lead in our third year show. It was called Parade. It's quite a lesser known musical, so I'm not sure whether you'll know it, but it's based on a true story, set in Georgia, Atlanta, where a man was hanged.
How Becoming Lucille Trained Me In NLP Before I Knew What NLP Was
[00:23:22] A Jewish man was hung because of a murder that he potentially didn't do. They still don't know to this day whether he did or didn't, and I was playing his wife. The reason I tell you that is because that was the concept. That was the musical I was in. I was playing the wife to a man who was being hanged for a murder he didn't do.
[00:23:45] So I really had to understand the thoughts and the feelings and the situation she was going through. I'd already been very immersed in the performing arts world, and I'd been immersed in thinking about how people think, and the states that people are in. Many of the NLP techniques I now teach are huge in the performing arts world.
[00:24:10] The crossover, like state and physiology, all of it really ties in with what you're taught to become a better actor or actress. I do believe in my ability to tap into that. I remember I had a pre-show ritual where I wouldn't speak to anyone past the half an hour call, and I would sit in the wing and really get into Lucille, who was the character.
[00:24:36] I would really get into her feelings. I literally have goosebumps here, but then, when haven't I got goosebumps? I can still tap into that feeling to this day, because I really anchored it in. So when I started NLP, I thought, "Oh my God. What the hell?"
[00:24:53] It was already something I was so curious about, but when I was in that room, in that first NLP practitioner room, and more so with my masters, my masters really changed the game for me. That was one of the most influential 9 days I have ever experienced.
[00:25:13] I know my NLP master practitioners, if you're coming through and doing it with the Subconscious Institute, are going to go through the same, because my God, the way I've set it up is so powerful. I really felt this profound change during that time. When I went into NLP...
[00:25:34] Sorry, I've gone on such a side note here, but I obviously can't shut up today, so we'll carry on. When I went into NLP, it was always, for me, "How can 2 people experience the same situation and walk away with completely different feelings about it, or memories about it?" I was always wondering about that.
[00:25:52] How can someone be told they were incredible and only remember the criticism? This was huge for me. Huge for me. Why had one setback that someone had gone through become proof they weren't good enough, when someone else would see that setback as useful?
[00:26:11] I was very interested, more so in how people in the industry were making it, in the performing arts industry, because there is so much talent. There is a lot of talent, but a lot of the people were as talented as each other, so why is one person getting it over the other?
[00:26:30] A lot of the time it did come down to fucking whether your teeth were straight and your hair was blonde and your arm was the right length. It literally would come down to that. But there was also a lot behind the energy and the belief system, and this kind of bolshiness within that. So I was really excited about this, and NLP taught me the process.
The NLP Communication Model That Changed How I See Behaviour
[00:26:51] It taught me the process, and I remember one of the very first things I learnt, which is the very first thing I teach my NLP practitioners, is the communication model. To this day, I still think it is one of the most life altering models I will ever come across. It completely changes the way you understand human behaviour.
[00:27:11] It really was a drop of the hat moment, thinking, "What? That's what's happening?" We like to think we're responding to life as it is, but we're not. We're taking all this information in through our senses, and before we're consciously aware of it, our subconscious mind has already decided what to leave out.
[00:27:37] It's decided what to focus on. It's decided what meaning to attach to it. It's decided through our belief system, our filters and our values. By the time we're consciously aware of it, are we responding to the event, or are we responding to what we call in NLP our internal representation, the one we have created?
[00:27:55] Oh my God, that for me was the catalyst to my obsession, even though I was quite obsessed with it before. It was so powerful. It was so powerful. I came out of NLP and I really started to ask how people are creating experiences, rather than, "Oh, why do people do that?"
Most Coaches Fix The Behaviour. I Go Underneath It.
[00:28:19] Or, "Why do they think that way?" No, how are they creating that experience? They're such different questions, and that really, for me, was about becoming curious about the process that's producing the behaviour. I very rarely look at the behaviour as a coach.
[00:28:38] I know I speak about this a lot on the Subconscious Institute Instagram. A lot of coaches who are not qualified in these sorts of modalities will constantly look at the behaviour, but there's so much more underneath that. That's still one of the biggest shifts, and the real subconscious reprogramming, that I do with my clients today.
[00:28:55] If someone's procrastinating, I don't give a shit about what they're procrastinating on. I want to know what's going on underneath. There's a process, and if we understand the process, the behaviour makes perfect sense. I know I say this a lot, but I hardly work with behaviours with my clients, because they naturally change when we change what's underneath.
[00:29:16] You know how obsessed I am with NLP. I don't need to go into it again. But it really was another part that allowed me to become so obsessed, and then even more obsessed when I became a trainer's trainer back in 22...
[00:29:34] No, where are we? 2024. Seeing it from a trainer's trainer point of view, and then being able to train it. We've now had 4 cohorts. We're about to step into our first master cohort. I'm just about to do it, and I don't know whether I will have already done it by the time this podcast episode goes out, but I'm just about to do my hypnosis trainers training, so I can now qualify people to become a hypnotherapist.
[00:30:02] Oh my God. It's such a framework for understanding humans. Understanding humans. It's just so powerful. So I would say that was the biggest catalyst, really understanding that, and then continuing to do the work within it.
“You Don't Know You Need Rebecca Haydon Until You Work With Her”
But the third thing, and I know this is a very long episode, so I hope you're still with me. The third thing that keeps my obsession going is how much my clients change in front of me. To this day, and anyone who works with me says this to me time and time again, they can feel and they can know how...
[00:30:47] Why am I getting emotional about this? How much I want the change for them, and how the skills that I have really changed their life. The lives that I have changed. Again, I am very quick to delete these parts of me, because I'm always on the "Oh, let's go for more, let's go for more."
[00:31:09] But sometimes when I've received testimonials, or even just a message from clients, I sit there and read it and I literally think, "Their life has changed for the rest of their life because of the work we've done together." That, for me, makes me more obsessed with the subconscious than anything else ever will.
[00:31:30] It's literally sitting opposite another human being who has watched the same patterns exist over and over and over again, and then, through subconscious reprogramming, doing something different. Yeah, it's just so magical. When I first started working with clients, I was using NLP in conversation, rather than the NLP techniques, which is more so what we do in masters anyway.
[00:31:57] We obviously use techniques, but with masters you really learn to understand the language behind what people are saying on a very, very deep level. But I was doing hypnotherapy for weight loss, and I was stopping smoking. I stopped someone smoking in a half an hour session. That is still, to this day, one of my absolute moments.
[00:32:19] I used to help people with so many things. This is when I would see them in person more, when I lived in Australia, and people would literally come to the house. I had about 20 one to one clients I would see in person. It was just incredible. When I first started working with clients, I honestly thought every session would be completely different, with different lives, careers, childhoods and goals.
[00:32:47] But what I didn't expect was that, underneath all of those stories I kept witnessing, the subconscious programmes were the same. It's just so powerful, so, so powerful, again and again with each client I've worked with. It would be so amazing if I knew how many hours of subconscious mind work I have done with people.
[00:33:14] I wouldn't even like to guess. But I just found it so powerful to be in a moment with someone who had a belief or a memory about something that was really holding them back, and to watch them see the world through a completely new light. That's where I became so obsessed, because someone had put this in a comment the other day about me, saying, "You don't know you need Rebecca Haydon until you go and work with her."
[00:33:54] Which is lovely for marketing. But the subconscious work, and working with me, is one of those experiences that, no matter how good I am at marketing, I don't think I would ever be able to truly get across the experience you have.
[00:34:16] One, because it is so different with every client, and two, because there is just something so powerful about the subconscious work that you have to experience it. You have to experience it. I think that's why I never, ever get bored of this work, and I never will.
Why The Subconscious Mind Work Never Gets Boring
You know, I'm building the Subconscious Institute to become something that I live in, that I grow, that I love for years and years to come. This subconscious mind work never becomes repetitive to me. It's the complete opposite. There's always something new for me to work on with a client.
[00:34:47] There's always a new belief system, or situation, or value. There's always something different. Every client reminds me that the subconscious mind is so powerful and so just fucking life altering.
[00:35:14] It's changed my life. I was in a very different position even in 2019. Even in 2021, and I know that feels really far away now, but I couldn't comprehend the amount of money I make now. I would fall on the fucking floor. There would be no...
The Money And Life I Never Thought Was Possible
[00:35:37] I was always the girl who didn't have money. I was always the girl who didn't have money. In fact, I got into a shit ton of debt before I went to Australia, because I had a credit card, and that was the way I had money. Just powerful, powerful changes that it can create. That is truly where my obsession will stay, in knowing what changes it can make.
[00:36:09] I work with a client, and I've had this so many times where they've said, "Look, Bec, I've done so much. I've done therapy, I've done this, I've done that, and nothing has been like the way you work. Nothing has been this experience I've had." Clients are sitting opposite me and, perhaps for the first time in 10, 20, 40 or 50 years, they stop seeing themselves as the problem and start being curious about the process, the process that's been creating that experience all along. That shift is where subconscious reprogramming truly begins.
[00:36:35] Those are still my favourite moments. To be honest, I'm a natural born teacher. For those wondering, I'm a generator. I'm a natural born teacher. I'm a natural educator. I love it. I love finding out something new. I love teaching you on the podcast. I love teaching it in the things I have in my world.
[00:36:57] I just love it. I love spreading this information. It's why I still record this podcast every week. It's why I still train practitioners and master practitioners. Every time someone understands one more piece of how the subconscious mind is so powerful, that to me is, "I've done my job in this world.
What Are You Feeding Your Subconscious
[00:37:19] I've done my job in this world." So thank you for today. It's been a bit of a different episode. I've loved taking you on my little journey. I think it did really start from the colour yellow, weirdly. The colour yellow. To this day, I still hold the colour yellow very dear to my heart.
[00:37:39] It was a massive part of my brand for a very long time. But yeah, it was the colour yellow. It was the colour yellow. I think it was the first time I knew that this feeling I had felt, and the way I feel, could feel different. Recently I've been pondering whether to dip my toe back into performing.
[00:38:02] I think I'm ready again. Yeah. Powerful. So I hope you've enjoyed today's podcast episode. I hope you can see and feel how obsessed I am. I think you already knew that anyway. But I just want to leave you with one question, especially around the subconscious. What are you feeding it?
[00:38:26] What are you feeding your subconscious? What are you telling it to be true or not true? Just know that that is where things can change. That is where subconscious reprogramming starts. That is where things can change.
[00:38:39] Mm.
[00:38:40] I love you all, and I'll see you in the next episode.
More about The Subconscious Expert:
Welcome to The Subconscious Expert, the podcast where your subconscious becomes your one-way ticket to the mind-blowing results you desire in your life and business! I’m your host, Rebecca Haydon, The Subconscious Expert who went from being stuck in victim mode to a multi 6 figure business owner. Each week, I will be giving you the subconscious tools and techniques so you can become the woman who is living out her vision with a life and business that she is truly OBSESSED with. I have said it before, and I will say it 100 times again: "Your business can't outgrow your mindset, and if you want to grow your business, it always starts with growing your subconscious." So let's dive into the subconscious breakthrough you so deeply deserve!